Beat Beat Beat it Just Beat it

I am BEAT today just plain beat!

I talked to Denise yesterday and Cherrie for the first time today, That was weird and cool.

I don't know I never talk to anyone on the phone its rare.

Andrew and I laugh if one of us asks who called because our phone only rings when there is an emergency LOL Maybe 1 time every 2 weeks.

But I had fun and it was cool,maybe I shall utilize thins new fangled thing called TELEPHONE!

I bought some small goodies for RAK's on 8up. Some of them came today YAY! I actually got my SS stuff in the mail for March....so I am on top of it.

I talked to my Dr. again in Oregon , she said I need to get a check up. She thinks I have pernicious anemia? (sp?) It means shots every few weeks and something else I don't know, but it might be why I am so exhausted.
I feel really sad and depressed lately. Andrew is not helping much and I find we are fighting most days. Sometimes I get tired of being the only one who is motivated and yearns for something better in our lives.

Oh well, thats life...*sniff* kick myself in the butt and shut the hell up! Just feeling that real isolated lonely feeling again and I need to just get over it and realize I won't ever have someone right here to be my friend and I need to learn to be my own friend. Hey Cristal how ya doing today? Pretty good lame as how about you? :P