Thursday, June 3, 2010

Good morning my friends.
Yes, it's another crafty reveal for Pinky today...

I think this is one of the most "artistic" layouts I have done in
a very long time. The technique I used for the dripping "pain"
is going to be revealed in SFTIO this month.
I am always amazed when I sit down to make a deep layout
how much pain comes bubbling up to the surface
even after all these years.
It has been over 4 years since I have even seen
my so called "family" and it's been 10 years since anyone
has abused me, but I sit here today at 35
and it feels like a distant memory, but the emotion is still exactly the same.
Not as much pain as I felt before...no crying and nightmares
any longer. But the pure raw feeling of emotion sits there
unchanged. I feel sad for them, I feel sad for me as a child.

I sort of thought if I faced them head on
(which I did) and faced my pain that it would all
wash away and I would have a pretty white bow on my feelings.

Instead the older I get the more sadness I feel
rather than anger and pain.
The stronger I feel for sure!

It's all about perspective I suppose.

Ok enough blabbering from me! LOL

~I hope you have a great day and I did
not depress you in any way~
~This is all for the amazing people who need it~
~Pinky~

10 comments:

Amber said...

I hear you!! I too had abuse as a child, but not from my parents. I also feel sorry for my childhood self. It sounds weird as an outside to hear someone say that, I'm sure. But it's cause I've moved on and now look back cause I have been through it and I'm now on the otherside of that dark tunnel that didn't seem like it had an out. xoxo

bluecrayons said...

no pink-ee you didn't depress me. in fact i enjoy really your posts. i love them cause there from the heart and truly how you feel. i admire that. i hope you have a blessed and wonderful day.

Heather said...

This one made me cry. I am so sorry you had to go through these kind of things. And amazed that you have moved past it and become such a wonderful person in spite of it! I really like the drippy paint too!

Ziggyeor said...

Great job on the drippy paint. Love this LO and how you can scrap such personal pain and then put it out there for all of us to see.

Dawn said...

I really find you to be a great role model or almost a hero...lol
Pain always stays with you in a small part, I think it is what keeps people strong and makes them face the everyday.
Thank you for sharing with all of us, so we can learn from you and maybe open up ourselves.
I love this layout and the colors are so perfect for the emotion.

Manhattan Mandie said...

Another amazing page, Pinky. I feel sad for that little girl and all the other kids that have had these things happen. But I felt sad for them before I read your post. I'm looking forward to seeing the posts about the techniques you are using on these pages this week, they are incredible, just like you :) Hope you have a wonderful day!

~HappyScrappinMama~ said...

Pinky, you are a brave soul. I am honored to be able to view these layouts and see your awesome talent. There are some thing in my past that I would love to put on paper but I am terrified that someone would read them. I am very interested in seeing tutorials on the techniques you used. Thanks so much for sharing!

Carla said...

Wow Pinky that lay out ROCKS and again good for you to be able to let it all out there!

Kristie Maynard said...

WOW! You are very brave to do this page at all. I never think of doing something painful on a scrapbook page. Well, not that painful anyway. I just try to ignore it and hope it won't pop up at the wrong time. Guess I just feel like, if I put it on paper, it will always be there to remind me. Kudos to you!!!

Kim. said...

You are an amazing women to be able to write about the past of your childhood, I am sure it will never ever go away but you have moved on and now have a wonderful husband and family whom adore you and you adore them that is all that matters. Keep strong, this is a wonderful layout, with a very strong feel to it.
Kim xXx