~ Authentique-No Love Layout~

Good morning my friends!!

I was in Joanns yesterday and found these stamps on sale, so I

picked up 2 sets, one for my blog friends and one for me.

Just leave a comment and on Friday I will post a winner.

And if you could please spread the love I would appreciate it! :)

This one was just for y'all.

I also have a layout to share...be warned LOL

It's funny when I first began scrapbooking I was very in touch with my

emotions and scrapped so much good and BAD too. I was shocked

at how many people were upset with me about doing that.

Now I see it is much more accepted and common. Which is cool,

but now I hardly do it. SO yesterday while listening to Eminem

and driving into town and back I decided to make a personal layout again.

I was inspired. You know it's funny how in my life people have

tried to drag me down. My parents were so abusive, my ex husband

broke my back, it really has never ended. I finally feel I am

in a good place and healthy and healing from all the abuse and pain.

I am not going to fall now, I have worked too hard to let my demons

and past behavior of allowing abuse in my life to creep back in

and change my strength and love now.

It's funny I guess I always have to be on guard, make sure

I am aware and keep it in check kind of like an addiction.

My ex husband used to tell me how I MADE him hit me

because I provoked him or wore too much perfume, or pretty

much anything he felt annoyed him.

I am always so scared to make someone mad from those experiences.

My mom always told me no one would love me because I was

disgusting. Now I see it's easy to change the way a person thinks by

dragging them down because of insecurities.

Seems she always found something I was doing wrong and to pick

at me for but now I see it was just her own insecurities.

Doesn't mean I have to allow that in my life or accept being

constantly blamed and told I am wrong or offending someone.

Life is not meant to walk on eggshells, but to spread love and happiness,

and that's the example I choose to share with my boys.

At first I thought I might not share this layout but then I realized we

all have demons, whether it be physical abuse, mental abuse, or just

rough patches with family and friends. You have to consciously make the

effort to stay strong and not slide back into that place where

you are the victim, but stay in survivor mode.

It might sound ridiculous to someone who has never been

abused but it is true. I am so blessed with strong amazing

people in my life that really help me stay strong.

And of course...Eminem! LOL

Products Used: Scraptastic Kit Club- March Kit All Authentique papers! :) Love them~