Thursday, August 14, 2008

~When things go badly they go BADLY~

Well, not such a fun scrappy day today.

Lastnight my 4 yr old son (the scrapping boy) fell from our 2 story window and landed very hard.

It happened around 7pm and I was in the hopsital/hospitals with him until 5am this morning.
The first hospital told me the bones in his back were broken and they transferred him 45 minutes away to a Children's Hospital, where they discovered in fac5t no bones were broken *thank you Jesus*

Frankly I am exhausted....they did 25 X-Rays and then 3 CT scans, then 4 more X Rays, and they cannot find anything broken, but bless his heart he screams bloody murder when he moves even one inch.

He begged them to "Stop hurting me PLEASE stop hurting me" as they missed his veins several if that does not rip a mother;s soul out and crush it I don't know what does?!

They even gave him morphine for the pain, I have never heard of a 4 yr old receiving morphine before.

They do not know what is wrong but he cannot walk today still.
I spoke with the orthopedic Surgeon and explained to him that my son needed to be home and feel safe so he could verbally explain what was wrong.

He is not a very developed speaker yet and the nurse was yelling at him to tell her where it hurt.
Well he can barely say a sentence let alone verbalize while hopped up on Morphine.

So at 5:00am we were allowed to take him home form the second hospital.
No one had any sleep. With only one car and 3 kids...well you get the idea...Daddy had to bring them to pick mommy and Gage up.

Everyone slept for 2 hours them shuttled of to school and work.
Tonight we are all exhausted and a bit grumpy/overwhelmed.

One thing I did NOT expect...was the amazing amount of emotion and outpouring of love I have received from the scrapbooking community.

I have received the MOST heartfelt message from Just Scrappin' and Treasured Scrapbooking. And the word spread from there....Fiskateers had over 50 responses of support and love, not to mention the emails.

Now if that does not lift you up and support you I don't know what will.

When I was crying and feeling completely isolated and alone, I would go into a forum and start reading. I would be bawling like a baby but leave feeling loved and comforted beyond words.

I have to admit my faith has been shaken for the first time in many years today.
Through all my life and the rape and molesting and abuse I did not waiver but standing in the hospital facing my son's broken body....sometimes you just feel like enough is enough! And I felt so angry.

Plus this week we were turned down for state insurance so we have NONE But i think between the 3 programs the hospital sent us through we should be covered??? I really HOPE!

This evening was another comfort, I have a small crop scheduled...I called to see if I could get some help with snacks and such because I am feeling a bit overwhelmed to say the least, and the girls were SO understanding and insisted I cancel until next week! Now thats good people right there.

So until tomorrow, please keep my son in your prayers, he is a good boy and i hope he is just severely bruised and nothing is permanently damaged. We won't know for a day or two but we will take whatever comes and deal with it.


Holly said...

Oh my gosh! I am so sorry to hear this. It just takes my breath away. I wish there was something I could do. I pray they send him home with something for the pain and are following up. My heart goes out to you and your sweet little guy. Please keep us posted. We are praying.

Jackie said...

Oh my dear heavens! You poor girl. I can't imagine the emotions you have been through but I can imagine you are tired. You are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

OH CRISTAL, you and your son are absolutely in my prayers, how scary. I just did the whole hospital thing last week so i know how scared you are , and my 6 year old autistic son was also given morphine for the pain, so i guess its something they do , i was also surprised. I am just so happy and you are so blessed that he is OK , that couldve been so much worse, so you are blessed. Im on the opposite side of the US, but if you need an ear feel free to email me , hugs , i will check back for an update . I hope he is able to tell you something, maybe another hospital can take more xrays just to be sure. Maybe he's just bruised real bad .

aimee said...

oh pinky! i'm so sorry! i can't imagine what your going through emotionally. he is in my prayers! i hope his pain eases up. poor baby! hugs to you and him!

michelle said...

I will keep all of you in my prayers and wish I was closer as you could use the in person support I am sure!

Jenster said...

Hey girl, my heart goes out to you and your family. And you have an outpouring of love (and advice, since we LOVE to give advice LOL) on the Ohana Lanai.

Please keep us posted.

Georgina said...

praying for your little Gage! keep the faith! and TRY to get some rest tonight - I can't imagine what you are going through but I'm sure it's got to be horrible.. =( we are all praying for you and the little guy!God Bless!

Tona said...

Hang in there Pinky! We're all pulling for your son & your family as a whole.

marla said...

Oh poor Pinky - i have been thinking of you today and hope very much that your son recovers with no permanent damage!!

Anonymous said...

Cristal....I hope you have good progress at this point. He is going to be in pain for a while. Sent you a PM at Just Scrappin. Hugs and prayers.

Dawny P said...

oooh bless ya darlin xxx I will be thinking about your sweet boy and hope he is feeling better soon. Most nurses are ok but I am so sorry that you got one of the few that lacks patience and understanding - she is in the wrong job obviously. It made me quite angry reading that she was yelling at your lad. And yes, when your child is in distress it does rip your very soul out, I know. And you - you've been through it chicken. I never realised. Oh big hugs to you all and I'll be thinking about you xxxxxx

Sarah said...

Oh Hunny!! So sorry about your baby. I hope he's better soon!

JoEllyn said...

Oh Cristal you are so loved and I can't imagine what this was like for you! Praying that he has bruises and that's all!! DH and I are praying for you all!!!

Anonymous said...

I am keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. My heart goes out to you. Hopefully, he is just severly bruised and fully recovers.

Mummy LOL said...

Hi Cristal
I am so sorry I haven't sent you well wishes sooner (lots of stuff going on with us too)
I have much faith that Gage will be up and racing around before you know it and you will then find it hard to believe this difficult time.
I wish I was much closer and then I would cook for you, but McDonalds ala Dad is good too

Lots of positive hugs coming your way from New Zealand

patty w said...

Hugs to you and Gage, Pinky!

2832 :)

Kristine Davidson said...

Oh My goodness! I just read this .... i can't imagine how painful this is for your son and you as a mom... hang in there, and be strong!

{ hugs ! } Kristine

Anonymous said...

Jees, Pinky, I am so sorry to hear about the baby and am sending strong faith and support your way. Please keep us posted and if your Mac Donalds took phone orders, I woulda sent you dinner, lol! Gina

Lisa said...

Please keep us posted on Gage's condition. You are in my prayers.

Laurajean said...

Omg Cristal....I didn't know any of this and I'm so sorry...I will pray for you and your little boy...this just broke my heart this morning when I was checking out your blog.