I do, its almost therapeutic in a way.
I foudn these pictures today and right away instead of pondering the sorrow in my heart I decided to scrap them.
I mean what the hell right?
Gosh 6 years with a man who beat me and broke my back and bought me everything I could ever want in exchange for non stop abuse and pain.
Was it worth it?NO But I sure learned alot.
And you can bet your ass I sleep sound at night.
And in the end it was a lesson I would not change.
It taught me to be STRONG and a little mean and brutally aware of real life.
I can spot an abuser miles away now and I protect my boys like no other.
Yes, I have moved on and life is almost "normal" if you will.
But forgetting completely, well i think i would lose some of my lesson.
Same thing with my abusive childhood. If I forget completely, I won't remember what i was supposed to learn and SHARE with others. It keeps me open to seeing how everyone is human and there is pain everywhere and to have compassion to the utmost degree possible.
It makes being kind a little more important, being open to listen a lot more valuable.
So yes, I scrap the hard stuff. It keeps me real. Its my life after all! And someone will look back and say...
"WOW and she MADE IT! Maybe I can TOO!"