I was challenge to do a LO by writing a letter to myself 5 years ago, that happens to be the time I wrote my book out and faced my molesters and abusers, so I wrote a note of strength to myself. If I had only known how hard it would be and what I would face, I might not have done it. I might have given up and who knows.
I know you feel in your heart there are better things to come but right now you are just hanging on for dear life.
I am here to tell you that YES you CAN do it and there are better times ahead.
This next year will be hell, you will feel like dying, you will feel like you cannot face one more second of pain and anguish.
You will wonder why in the hell you ever chose to face your demons and why you chose to put it all out there.
But, I want you to know….It does get better and before it is all said and done you will help others.
Please stay open and please focus on the big picture.
Focus on the fact that you will be a better mother when this is over, focus on the fact that your life will change and you will feel whole.
Go ahead and change, don’t be afraid.
Don’t let those people drag you down and tell you to shut up.
Do not let your family make you feel guilty for exposing them as abusers, they deserve it and you need to be free and listen to me….YOU WILL BE FREE! It will take time but girl, you will be FREE!
Do what you have to do and keep your eye on the goal, take care of those boys.
It will change your life in the end and keep your family protected.
You are so worth it.
I Promise this journey will be worth it.
~Have a great Friday!~