If you know me or have seen my work before, you know I scrap my life as is.
For some scrappers it is all about capturing those precious beautiful moments and having a happy loving album. For others it is about recording life.
For me, it is therapy and leaving my story behind for others to see.
Now this is the FIRST page ever, that I had to walk away from because I was so ANGRY making it I wanted to hit something. It is about how my EX husband broke my back several years ago.
Actually he knocked me unconscious in the bathroom and when I woke he was so angry I passed out, he said I was faking it so he threw me down and kicked me so many times, I do not remember, then he broke a chair over my back and beat me until I passed out again.
I spent 3 months in therapy and the hospital.
I have back pain every single day. Some days it is BAD some days it is bearable.
Lately it has been unbearable and I have been grumpy from it. I wake grumpy
and go to sleep grumpy.
My husband now is so understanding but it pisses me off.
The Guttergirlz Prompt got me thinking and I make this page.
IN case your curious the journaling says
I am so f*king tired of waking up every single day knowing I will be in pain all day long
and it will never change. Yet YOU walk free and upright.
I wish when you threw me down and kicked me until I passed out, I would have stood up and some sort of monster would have arisen in me and you would have been on the floor.
So I blame myself 2, How sick is that?
Well, you did it.
You broke me.
My back and body cannot be fixed.
But guess what asshole? I still have my mind and my spirit.
I might be pissed today but I can live with myself. So ROT IN HELL!
(second journaling spot)
Ya 11 years and it still F**king hurts!! It's hard to trust God knows what He is doing.
But he must or Bill would have killed me that night.
Oh and all of the supplies I used came from the #2 kit in Treasured Scrapbooking and items from the store. Can you believe I got the paint and 5 other bottles for 2.50?? Love TS stuff!